I'm Disappointed!

I just finished my driving lessons. I'm still having a hard time driving. I don't know if I'm just being so hard on myself. Pero when I practice nagkakaron ng time na namamatayan pa din ako ng engine. :( :( So sad talaga. Now I regret why I didn't get an automatic transmission car. Ang hirap ng manual! :( I'm soo eager pa naman of bringing my car and go around on my own. Pero I'm losing my confidence already with manual transmission car. :( I hope I can bring back all the guts that I have. Hayyy....